Well, here goes nothing...

We made it to Disney! We went to the Expo, which was completely overwhelming, picked up our bibs and shirts, and headed to our resort.  We knew we were supposed to "carb load" the night before so I ate a po-boy with big thick bread... Delrose and Sami sat outside and watched a movie "under the stars" while Shaun & I got ready for bed.  We had to be up at 3 to catch our bus before 4 to get us to the "gathering spot" before 5.  I bought a "runners box" the night before from the cafeteria at our resort which had peanut butter, a bagel, a banana, a granola bar & a water.  I ate 1/2 the bagel with peanut butter on it, and saved the banana & bar for closer to race time. 

Since this is a princess race, I had on a red tutu skirt and black shirt (I was supposed to look like Minnie). I had my "cuff" for my knee and some KT tape on it too, hoping for the best. 

We get to the "gathering place" where there is a DJ set up and ladies are dancing and people are adjusting costumes everywhere.  I was just trying to sit and take it all in.  Honestly, at this point I was just terrified.

We started the VERY long walk to our corrals.  Shaun was in H & I was in O.  The last corral was P, so I had a little bit of a head start from the balloon ladies.  By the time I got to my corral, I had walked more than 2 miles! Seriously?

 I guess that was a good way of warming up- if I didn't have to wait more than an hour to get started! That's right... the race officially began at 5:30 & I went through the starting line at 6:29.  Right before it was our turn, my nerves were shot!

I was scared, nervous, had to pee, wanted to throw up, wanted to run away, felt completely alone.... there was pretty much nothing positive going on at that time. Our fireworks went off, people started moving... I started crying.  What was I doing? What was I thinking? I am crazy! I can't do this! I will never.... "Hey, are you ok?" It was a random princess next to me. "I don't think I can do this...." was my reply. She looked at me, smiled and said, "Sure you can! That's why you're here, now go!"
So, I went. 
I started running and I didn't stop moving for 3 hours and 24 minutes. 

That's right, I finished! I did it! I beat the balloon ladies! Honestly, I never even saw them or the end of the line! Every once in a while, I would look behind me to make sure they hadn't caught up to me, but they didn't!

I knew I could "easily" run a mile, so that was the plan, run the first mile, then just do what you can.  I knew I didn't want to get too tired too soon since I'd never done a long run...
One thing I wasn't prepared for was the amount of people.  It was more difficult dodging folks and trying to be polite and stay out of the way of faster runners. 

I was constantly checking my runkeeper app to be sure I wasn't going too fast or too slow.  I knew I had to keep a 16 minute mile to stay in front of those balloon ladies, plus I had a 5-6 minute head start... If I ran a 12 min. 1st mile, that would give me even more padded time....
This is what was running through my head the first 4 miles trying to convince myself I could finish this race. 

They had princes and princesses set up along the road for pictures.  I knew they would be there but I wasn't concerned about them.  I'm not a huge princess person, so I knew I wouldn't be tempted to stop.  However... when I saw Jack Skellington, I wanted to stop! I didn't - but I wanted to! I was able to take a pic while running. 

Once I got to my 5K mark, I was feeling pretty good.  I was averaging a 13:45 minute mile! I knew I wouldn't keep that pace, but was pleased with what I was doing- especially since I hadn't run in almost 3 weeks...

We were almost to the MK when I saw the busses! The busses that pick up the people that don't make it. We had to run past them on our way to the side of the MK.  Talk about motivation! I didn't want to see them again, so I started running again!
As we came around the corner on Main Street USA we could see all of the spectators. They were there to cheer for a family member or friend, but they were also cheering for us! I wanted to cry again! It was so moving for me! I just kept saying, "Thank you! Thank you" even though I knew they weren't there for me, they were helping me.  You couldn't help but run when they were cheering for you like that!

We took a right at the hub towards Tomorrowland.  We continued left towards Fantasyland.  The carousel was going.  I though it looked so beautiful.  We ran towards the castle with Elsa, Anna & Kristoff waving at us from above.

We went down towards the partners statue and took a right towards Liberty Tree.  This is where I forget.  I know we went through Liberty Square because I remember thinking, "I'm running in the poo river".... ( Disney inside joke)
We took a left right past Splash Mountain (where the parade comes in/goes out) and headed backstage.  More princes hanging out for pictures.  No time for that... I see the 10k sign ahead!
I'm still averaging under a 15 minute mile.  Hey, that means the 1/2 way point is close by, right? holy smokes- this is the farthest I've ever run! I might actually be able to do this!!!

I did receive a bunch of texts while going.  Two were Bible verses:
"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles.  And let us 'run with perseverance the race marked out for us' Hebrews 12:1"   Thank you Alecia!
" He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.  Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.  They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary. they will walk and not be faint.  Isaiah 40:29-31"  Thank you Hannah!
Seriously, I could feel those prayers! I was getting strength from them and God was absolutely carrying me forward!

Although I'd been saying (sometimes out loud), "I can do this, one step at a time, I can do this" throughout the entire race, it wasn't until mile 7 I started believing it. 

I finally allowed myself to slow down a bit. I knew mile 10 was coming and with it, the big onramp "hill". I took it slowly, reminding myself that the slow and steady tortoise won the race.... 

Someone said at the top of the onramp that once we passed mile 10, they weren't "sweeping" anymore! I'd done it! I'd beat the balloon ladies! Yahoo!!! Now, I just had to keep moving so I could finish! We had 2 more hills ahead of us I didn't know about before heading into Epcot.  As we made our way through the huge parking lot, I remember thinking, "I will never complain about parking again!"  
There were more spectators along the road now.  Some of them holding signs, all of them cheering.  Again, they gave me so much encouragement! I saw Lou cheering and I said, "Lou! I'm Summer!" but I didn't stop! I kept going!!! I'm not going to lie... I have never wanted to get out of Epcot so badly in my life! Everyone was saying, "You've got this!!! You're practically there!!!" We ran almost to the start of the countries, and turned around, heading back towards the exit.  After we exited, I could see the 13 mile mark.  As soon as I saw it, I started crying again.  I tried to record myself going through the finish line. 

I'm not going to lie.  I ugly cried! I mean for real! It was so bad, I'm not even gonna share it...
I immediately called my mom. I said, "I'm done" She said, "Well, how far did you make it?" SERIOUSLY?!?!??!?
I said, "Uh, 13.1 miles!"  She was so surprised, "Oh my gosh, I can't believe it! Wow, way to go!"

Right past the finish line, I heard someone calling my name, I looked over & my friend Melissa was there cheering! I ugly cried again!

 I was so moved to know someone was there cheering for me! I couldn't quite reach her due to the barricades, but I squeezed her hand as best I could.  I walked a little farther where they were handing out the medals.  I heard a lady say, "Oh! She needs hers!" Obviously, I was still crying... She gave me a huge hug and told me how proud she was of me.  I just cried on her shoulder and told her thank you! I have no idea who she was, but I will never forget her!

I could see Shaun just beyond the next "gate" waiting for me.  He had been waiting for about an hour.  I didn't care how stinky we were, I just let him hug me. I know he was proud of me too!
So, there ya have it... My first Half Marathon! I'm officially a "half marathoner" No one can ever take that away from me!

I honestly didn't think I'd ever say this again, but... I think I want to go for a run today...
~Summer

Will we ever make it to the Half Marathon?

Well, after my last blog about running 5 miles, I was so excited! 2 days later, I went out for a "quick" 2-mile run.  I came home and my left knee was screaming with pain! I put some ice on it & took some Advil hoping that would ease some of the pain.  Two days later, it was still hard to walk on it! I couldn't straighten it out on my own, I couldn't put pressure on it, I certainly couldn't run on it!  I figured I would let it heal for about 2 more days, then get back out there. 
Then, I got sick.  I couldn't breathe, my head was always stuffy, I was coughing... it was ridiculous. This lasted a week.  I ended up with a sinus infection.  I went to the Dr, got a shot & a round of antibiotics and finally started feeling better- which was good, since the race was now in... one week!
That's right- One week away from my first ever Disney Run, first ever Half Marathon, heck, First ever any distance official race! You want to talk about negative voices in my head? Oh- they were there all right, only now they were SCREAMING!

So, here we are, week of the race.  I'm trying to figure out what to do at this point- to run or not run? Then, as if I didn't have enough obstacles already in my way, Sami ( my 4 year old) gets bitten by a spider.  We go to the Dr. and she is very concerned.  It looks as if the bite is infected.  She wants me to come back in 2 days- which is Friday- the day we leave for Disney. 
We go back Friday. It's looking better, but she is still worried.  At this point- there is no way I'm leaving her here.
NOW WHAT??? Shaun (my sweet husband) and I try to figure something out.  We know for sure she's going with us, but who will watch her while we're running? We call a bunch of people to see if anyone can drop everything to go to Disney for 2 days.  Naturally, no one can.  Shaun suggests he stay with her & let me run.  I can't stand this idea.  We talk to my mom (who was supposed to be keeping the girls).  She and my Dad both say if only one of us can run, it needs to be Shaun since I won't finish.  (Yay for super-supportive parents).
So, there we are. Friday night, 2 hours after we should have left- feeling completely defeated.  Shaun walks in and says, "Did you call Delrose?" Now, Delrose is my godmother. No, I had not asked her because I knew it would be really hard for her to just pick up and go on such short notice.  Shaun told me to call her.  Reluctantly, I did.  I was still crying when she answered.  She already knew what was going on and basically, she said, "Well, it wouldn't be my first choice, but sure! Why not?  What time do we leave?"  "Ummm... 3 am"
So... 7 hours later, we pull out of my driveway (me, Shaun, Sami & Delrose) headed to Disney & my first Half Marathon...

A trip to the library

Wow, Time is catching up! So, I went to my library (which is AWESOME, I might add) to get some of the books I don't own.  I borrowed:

Rainbow Fish, Olivia, Don't let the Pigeon drive the bus (all 3 of which I thought we owned???), How I Became a Pirate, Make Way for Ducklings, Someday, & Oh the Things you can Think!

From my sister, I borrowed:

Where the Wild Things Are, & (a version of) Pat The Bunny. 
I went to BAM and bought The Belly Book because I can't seem to find it anywhere!!!
I was lucky enough to see "Goodnight Gorilla" in my teacher's book bin and she was kind enough to loan it to me for the night.  :)

Reading to her is still a challenge! Sami does not want to sit down and listen to a story! I just don't understand! Mr. Matt from our library came to our class to read and I just sat there and enjoyed every moment of it! I have always loved to have someone read to me.  (Thanks Mom!!!) I can't imagine not wanting to enjoy listening to a story.

Anyway, when I pulled out Where the Wild Things Are, she got really excited.  We read it together and acted out the parts together.  It was fun for both of us. :)
I had not read "Someday" before now, and Oh my gravy- depressing!!! She really enjoyed Goodnight Gorilla.  I will probably go look for it today to purchase for her.  She liked telling me what everyone in the story was doing.  :)   She also likes the Pigeon books.  She loves saying, "NO!" after the Pigeon begs... It's funny. 

On a sort of different note, She found Ashlyn's Pete the Cat CD's that go along with "Rocking his New Shoes" & "Rocking his School Shoes". She has almost worn them out!!! It is really too cute to watch her!

I guess that's all for now.  I'm going back to the library Monday to return the ones we've read & pick up a couple I have on hold (Going on a Bear Hunt & Duck in the Truck). 

"B-Day" is getting way too close!

~Summerr

Since we're both sick...

Hi there,
So I realized (and am slightly shocked) that I barely have a month to finish my 50 before 5 list! How is it possible that my baby- my LITTLE BABY is about to be 5 in a month??? I am not even dealing with that right now!
Anyway, we are both home sick, so I went through her library & pulled all of the books on the list we own.  I allowed her to choose 3 plus I borrowed  "I will love you forever" from my class.  So... on my bed sick and pitiful, Sami & I read:
Chicka Chicka Boom Boom- she enjoyed counting all the way to 100 at the end of the book. :)
I will Love you Forever- and no, I did not make it through the book without crying.  She didn't notice since my voice is already hoarse from being sick. Such a sweet story that just reminds me of how fast both of my babies are growing up! :(
Goodnight Moon- I still know this one from when Ashlyn was little.  It was her favorite & we read it almost every night.  It will always have a soft spot in my heart & will always remind me of my first sweet baby. 
Green Eggs and Ham- Sami likes this one.  She likes to tell me where Mr. Knox does NOT want to eat them. :)
This was probably the most attentive Sami has been in a while for books.  No ipad, no "reading" other books while I was reading, just good ol listening and asking questions about the story or pictures.  It was nice. We will see how she does the next time.  I still have a few books I need to "find" that I know our library does not carry.   Of course, we all know I don't mind buying them... ;)
~Summer

No Mardi Gras for me...

Hi,
So this post really isn't about running, or reading.  It's a pity party for me.  For the past 2 years, we (me, Shaun, Ashlee, Momma & Daddy) have gone to Biloxi & NOLA for Mardi Gras (weekend before Mardi Gras). 
Here are a few pics from the past couple of years...

This year, Sami started getting sick the week we were supposed to leave.  By Thursday night, I started feeling a little puny myself.  So, here I sit- Saturday night during the Endymion Krew Parade- in my bed in Alabama.  Needless to say, I'm sad.  I guess there is always next year, right?
Anyway, I guess I need to update my 50 before 5 while I'm feeling OK. 

Til next time,

~Summer

I'm still here...

Believe it or not, I haven't quit! That being said, I still haven't made it very far.  Once I started working, my training took a sad turn from 2-3 times a week to 1-2 times a month! I was trying to figure out how to still run a household with 30+ less hours in a week.  I'm still trying to figure it out, but I am FINALLY making time for my runs.  I'm still not running very far, but that's ok.  I'm out there doing what I can.  I still think my biggest obstacle will be the negative voices in my head telling me that "I can't do this, I'm not a runner, what was I thinking, I won't make it to the finish line, I'm going to fail, everyone will pass me, I will get swept by the bus, I can't, I can't, I can't!"
It is really hard to push them out.  I asked a friend of mine to run with me to see if that helped.  It actually did! We talked during our 3 mile run which was nice- no room for that negativity! The farthest I've "run" (gone) is 3.2 miles & the farthest I've RUN without walking is just a little over 1 mile (at one time). I was so proud of that 1 mile! I was determined to do it.  Again- little victories.
Speaking of victories...

I "ran" 5 miles tonight!!!

 

I was on the treadmill (it's cold & I don't like running by myself at night) but it was good.  I had headphones in, but I was telling myself I can do it!!! I have to literally talk the negative voices away!  I was so proud of that 5.00 on the treadmill I wanted to cry! Yes, I do realize in 4 weeks (it may actually be closer to 3 now...) I will have to run almost 3x that, but that is OK!!!  I will be able to do it! Will I be anywhere close to the front? NO! Is that ok? YES!!!  I just want to cross that finish line to prove to myself, my parents and my family that I could DO IT!!! My body is strong and healthy enough to do it.  I might sleep forever afterwards, but that's ok too!
Ok, back to tonight's run: I ran the 1st mile since I knew I could, and pushed myself to go a little over. :)  After walking at a fairly quick pace, I tried to run again.  I did intervals the remainder of the time.  I wanted to run the last quarter mile, but I didn't make it, so I slowed down and decided to walk the last 10th of the final mile.  I did it! I could feel another serious blister on my right foot, but once I saw that 5.0 mile mark, there was no pain.  I am hoping for the same feeling at the end of the race...
Oh! I almost forgot about my stats: so, 5.07 miles, 1:9:24, Average min/mile: 14:06! They say to aim for a 15 minute!!! YAY!!! Now, I may not be able to walk tomorrow, but tonight I RAN and I felt GREAT!!!!!!!

Still reading...

We are still going...
I took quite a break over Christmas Vacation.  I read Christmas books to the girls, but none of the 50 on the list.  I've done a little better though.  The past few days, I've read: The Stinky Cheese Man, If you give a Mouse a Cookie, & The Kissing Hand.  That may be all of the 50.  I borrowed The Stinky Cheese Man from school.  It was pretty funny.  Shaun stopped by the room after I finished reading to tease me about my accents.  Yes, I read in accents when at all possible- which is often! :)
Sami still complains about me reading books at night.  I don't know if she would just rather play with her ipad, even though that's not an option.  Who knows? Sometimes, she randomly wants me to read her a story in the middle of the afternoon.  When SHE asks me, she listens intently, but it's a story she's chosen and won't listen to any other stories.  UGH! Ashlyn keeps telling her that "Mommy is reading to me too, you don't have to listen".  At least one of my children enjoy hearing stories.  If Sami didn't look just like me & my Daddy, I might start wondering if she really is mine! ha ha!
Anyway,
Hopefully, there will be a few more books to add later this week.  I'm going to get on a Dr. Seuss kick pretty soon since there are so many of them on the list.  I know she loves Go Dog Go, so maybe that will be a good reading night! ;)

~Summer